I review cameras because it gives me the illusion of control.

Some people meditate. I color grade LOG footage at 3 a.m. I've mistaken sharpness for purpose, dynamic range for emotional depth, and firmware updates for personal growth.

I don't chase the perfect shot—I chase the temporary silence it gives me before the noise returns. And if that shot happens to be at f/1.8 with a diffusion filter? Even better.

I make videos, hoard gear, and spiral creatively so you don’t have to. But you will. We all do. Welcome to the loop.